Monday, 14 November 2016

Am I too picky?

I've done alot of thinking over the past few weeks, I mean I'm not sure if it's the logical part of my brain thinking or the little bit of insanity that goes on in there, but I keep thinking that I am but too picky when it comes to men.
I almost feel jealous for the people out there that has been seeing the same person for a good few years that look as though they got it good and perfect, but I also did say on my last post that you don't know what goes on in people's life's.. I'm sure they work at their relationships , however these people that from a far you look at and they look happy and in love , just moved in together,  can't keep their hands off each other , and engaged, pregnant yada yada yada!.
I envy them that's all I ever wanted I've never had all that  in one relationship ..in all 2 relationships I've been in, with John I got the physical contact and love but he just never seen me, once a week or even fortnight was not enough and the we seen each other less and less and i got use to being alone and it got to a point that dispite I had the title of being In a relationship.. I wasn't. With Chris I seen him all the time and had got the effection but just not much physical contact.. why cant i have both? One thing they were both the same with, is that it didnt matter if i voiced my concerns over matters ..they both were the same for communication, terrible.
I want it all ,not parts of a relationship ,im aware that noone is perfect but i think you got to have at least all that but like i said.. i feel as though i might be too picky  or maybe im just looking too much into things i don't think it's a bad thing that people have some specifics  in a guy .
I just want a guy that's head over heels in love with me as much as i am for him and that wants to spend time with me , can be, confident and romantic and sweet but who I can have a laugh with as well,  where the hell is my knight In shining armour!..is he stuck in traffic?