You got to hold on to what you've got.

Okay so quick life update. if I can make it quick that is.
Me and Chris have ended our relationship, it was very difficult as it's just so much more than just ending a relationship as we were engaged and living together, this was over 4-5 weeks ago but its just starting to sink in.
There is just so much to it all, that I don't even know where to start with it but I will say this, just because you are going out with someone doesn't mean you have them and you should never stop trying for one another, this really bothers me that these things happen, I've always tried my hardest to take the time to make an effort in the relationship I am in .
I make the effort  with my looks and compliment them , flirt with them understand their needs ..  a relationship should be  filled with love, understanding,  emotional and physical contact I did these things, but there's only a certain amount of time you can throw yourself I someone and get nothing back, it gets a bit embarassing
I don't give up on people straight away, I tried to talk to him  and tell him what's wrong and what we were lacking   I always did that I made sure I'd tell them how I feel  I always stated the problem and wanted to work on it, so why..why is it when I eventually have had enough that I get friends and family tell me that it's was "out the blue" and "oh you's were perfect"
It was only seen that way because I never told people the arguments, and lack of  love i was getting, whats the point? there was no point in tellig people about arguments,  to be honest I didn't even tell my best friend when things were shit because I was embarassed so I can see why she was shocked .. but realising with Chris I wasn't myself I cut off all my friends and family because that was what he was like I sacrificed alot to be with him and this is where it's got me, it trapped me in a relationship, that I was just comfortable in because I didn't want to tell my mum or come home or even know if I could come home I didn't know I was able to.
Don't pass judgement on something you can only see from the outside.
This has been the most crazy month, I knew it wasn't going to be simple but I know other people would be hurt by this news, but if both people arnt happy in the relationship and you've tried to make it work then eventually you just give up. Thinking about it I guess to him he wasn't expecting me to eventually say the words I want to break up, I guess he's  been so use to me saying to him "okay so this isn't working and that isn't working" and him telling me things are going to improve , that he just wasnt expecting it to end all together.
It makes me so mad I don't understand why im not being heard,
We've been through so Much together as well but feelings started to change and disappear the physical part of the relationship was long gone and all that was left was loving feelings you'd feel towards your brother.
If their are any guys out there reading this, please hold onto what you've got.. (sounds like I'm about to sing some bon jovi) and make an effort, same goes to the women out there it's not just one person's job to keep a relationship going you have to work at it together.