I've spent pretty much everyday with my bf since we've both been off work together,I thought he'd be sick of me by now.
Think there was a little bit inside me that was worried "oh no, he's gonna see me at my worst" which I guess eventually he would see , but I was trying to not reveal too quickly how I can be , I have had a few little panic attacks due to frustration of not being able to do some things and he's been brilliant, i guess you could say it's brought us closer together and opened us both up more and he's still here, horrah! I am, so thnakful to have someone as amazing as him in my life, he us the most amazing person and i just want to spend all my time with him,
He's not going anywhere as he keeps saying and i believe him when he says that, he's not wrapping me up too tightly , because I still need to be able to do things on my own and i don't want to go back to how I was before , where I relied on that person too much to a point that they would do everything for me, difference now is I want to do it and he gives me the option of still doing what scares me but at least trying it out , he's not steered me wrong so far most things I've faced has turned out to be a good night in the end and i feel so much better in the end having done it and that's down to him as much as it is me, there's no yelling, he's so patient and calm with me , even when I'm in a little annoyed mood he can litterly pull me in for a cuddle and he'd break down that wall I've been trying to build, he actually makes me want to be able to be the best version of myself and i know that's cheesy as hell but it's damn true, he is by far the best thing in my life and I'm just looking forward to doing so much amazing things together.
Think there was a little bit inside me that was worried "oh no, he's gonna see me at my worst" which I guess eventually he would see , but I was trying to not reveal too quickly how I can be , I have had a few little panic attacks due to frustration of not being able to do some things and he's been brilliant, i guess you could say it's brought us closer together and opened us both up more and he's still here, horrah! I am, so thnakful to have someone as amazing as him in my life, he us the most amazing person and i just want to spend all my time with him,
He's not going anywhere as he keeps saying and i believe him when he says that, he's not wrapping me up too tightly , because I still need to be able to do things on my own and i don't want to go back to how I was before , where I relied on that person too much to a point that they would do everything for me, difference now is I want to do it and he gives me the option of still doing what scares me but at least trying it out , he's not steered me wrong so far most things I've faced has turned out to be a good night in the end and i feel so much better in the end having done it and that's down to him as much as it is me, there's no yelling, he's so patient and calm with me , even when I'm in a little annoyed mood he can litterly pull me in for a cuddle and he'd break down that wall I've been trying to build, he actually makes me want to be able to be the best version of myself and i know that's cheesy as hell but it's damn true, he is by far the best thing in my life and I'm just looking forward to doing so much amazing things together.
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